run the redlights.

Why do birds suddenly appear
Every time you are near?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
Why do stars fall down from the sky
Every time you walk by?
Just like me, they long to be
Close to you.
On the day that you were born
The angels got together
And decided to create a dream come true
So they sprinkled moon dust in your hair of gold
And starlight in your eyes of blue.
- The Carpenters

what is your interpretation of this pic?

-nightmare-

she had a nightmare last night. when she woke up, she found that her eyes were wet.

"is that tears?" she wondered.

she just switch her msn mode to away when she saw her ex-buddy online. don't ask her, she don't know why. her ex-buddy came and chat with her, telling stories about her again. she is afraid to reply. in the past, they were real good buddies whom seemed to be inseperatable.

feeling helplessness & powerlessness= depression

she feels that way only at night,when she feels lonely. her wounded heart is crying for help. wanting someone to help her badly. don't know why, she feels so helpless. when she feels like telling her sorrow out to someone, she finds no one she can turn to. she can't recognise her own feelings. she can't manage her own feelings. she don't feel like talking to anybody now. everything seems to be out of place. she knows that she is a billon times more fortunate than some but she still feels depressed. she seems to own lots of things but those are only on the surface.

she wants an answer. she needs an answer. to reassure her of her mixed feelings. she is feeling weird and she don't know why. she suspects herself of having dependent personality disorder. and she don't know. she thinks that she is sick. and she don't know why. she hated herself for being so useless. she hated herself for being so helpless. she hated herself for being she so coward. she hated herself. for everything she did.

What are the symptoms of dependent personality disorder?

People with DPD become emotionally dependent on other people and spend great effort trying to please others. People with DPD tend to display needy, passive, and clinging behavior, and have a fear of separation. Other common characteristics of this personality disorder include the following:
Inability to make decisions, even everyday decisions, without the advice and reassurance of others
Avoidance of personal responsibility; avoidance of jobs that require independent functioning and positions of responsibility
Intense fear of abandonment and a sense of devastation or helplessness when relationships end; often move right into another relationship when one ends
Over-sensitivity to criticism
Pessimism and lack of self-confidence, including a belief that they are unable to care for themselves
Avoidance of disagreeing with others for fear of losing support or approval
Inability to start projects
Difficulty being alone
Willingness to tolerate mistreatment and abuse from others
Placing the needs of their caregivers above their own
Tendency to be naïve and to live in fantasy

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