my style

2007-11-17T06:31:00.001-08:00

didn't know when did it started, but seem like i have fallen deeply in..
i love to day dream and have been day dreaming all this while..
the dream i had yesterday was so real that i found myself really crying when i woke up.
cross my fingers and hope thatt it will not happen in reality.

2007-11-10T07:55:00.000-08:00

Log, check, see, log, check, see... Have been doing this for more than 7 times for the past few days. It have become a habit. Aiyo, Hoping for a reply eventually. Why am i stuck on the chair doing this multiple times?!

2007-11-09T07:30:00.000-08:00

STARDUST was really great, eventually everyone applause at the end of the show! I want a star for myself too.. wee :) Thank you CHER for the talking and gossiping. It made me miss the old times when i was a child. PRCP will be starting in 2 more days, i am overwhelmed with fear. Hopefully, i will be able to survive in the hospital for 3 mths. Not making any grave mistake and anyone being mistakenly killed by me. I had a haircut recently and the super duper short fringe made me look like a geek gal especially when I wear a spec. ! It is awfully ugly. My gosh. Faster grow longer!
Hmmm... it has been 2 or 3 years since then. Everything was in a mess, no doubt it is still. I detest it whenever i received any of her calls. even hearing anything abt her from mom or sis. When i was a kid, i thought that she was a kind, gentle, warm, someone whom i can relate to even better than my mom. I was fond of her, tailing her wherever she went. But i was wrong. i was blind or maybe cause i was just a kid? I have no idea why is she doing all these to us? Cause we aren't officially BLOOD-RELATED to her ? And she can say those kind of nasty stuffs? YOU ARE AN ADULT. not a kid anymore. Going ard being a hypocrite is enjoyable ah? One day, hopefully one day, i might drag her up from the ground, spin her ard spank her and throw her out of the UNIVERSE.

2007-08-07T07:38:00.000-07:00

You have saved her but killed her instantly. Why did you ? She tries to dig the truth as a lonely soul and was greatly traumatised . She is envious of you, who always goes around showing your wide and cheerful smile, greating great impression to every single one. With her around, she feels like a bad person; Not knowing that your words have a great impact on her. She had laid all her trust, hope, fear and secrets to you once upon a time. She wants to, tries to and is trying her best to forget everything but it fails. She couldn't. It is tough. She has been like this for years; Being a weakling. She hates to be. She is crying, can you hear her?

Crying badly to return.

2007-08-06T05:24:00.000-07:00

seem to be, not to be, seem to be, not to be.

- let me have partial amnesia. Wash my brains pls.-

2007-08-03T07:36:00.001-07:00

I am draining, turning off,

dont get close to me.

Don't try to.

there are countless of fear in me,

i can no longer function normally.

Every now & then,

words and images of the unforgettable memories kept haunting me.

Piercing right through my heart.

Creating countless of permanent scars & marks on it.

I can no longer take it. i am serious.

i haven talk to her for a week plus.

2007-07-25T08:37:00.000-07:00

the last time when we met, it doesn't beat any more.

it has gone...

doesn't feel, no weird thoughts.

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have been praying nights and nights, i am sure that they can hear me.

And, give you the answer that you have always wanted.

Way to go my precious friend!

A gem that shines my life!

A gift from heaven whom has never fail to draw a smile on me!

A pie with the fillings of jokes.

A friend whom has never left me alone. :)

To ah bug, da hao ren...

2007-07-20T02:50:00.000-07:00

ah! sudden breakouts, so angry!

Oh! The beauty product i have bought from nu ren wo zhui da is very effective.

I want to buy more products before the next spree ends!

2007-07-13T08:19:00.000-07:00

This is my youngest sis! She is cute isn't it?

This morning, she woke me up from my sleep as she wanted me to tie bun for her dance's

performance.

And ended up being lectured by me.

Sorry ! I love her! She is so adorable!

2007-07-08T06:47:00.000-07:00

有时候，不知不觉的会感到害怕。
对不起。

2007-07-08T06:14:00.000-07:00

越多钱就越辛福吗？
辛福是钱也买不到的。
辛福是一点一滴，每天，每天所累积的。
从你的字字句句，一句简单的话：“你今天过的怎样？”，
就可以从中感觉到那人对你的关怀。
每天从你的生活中找出那一点点，小小的辛福，
长年累月累积起来，把它们放进你的记忆盒里锁起来，
不久之后，你将是最福有，最辛福的！

有时，我觉得她好可怜啊。。。

2007-07-05T04:06:00.000-07:00

啊！你是一个大猪头！什么事都要说！啊啊！我讨厌你！

2007-07-04T08:37:00.000-07:00

i just hope that you are feeling better now. i will pray for you and her. Jia you, you can do it!

You are doing great for her....

2007-06-21T08:05:00.000-07:00

Vot e for the cutest photo!!!

They are cousins.

Oiink! oiink!

I have big mouth!

Ahhh!!! Catfight!!

Nah.. let's be good friends!

2007-06-21T07:35:00.000-07:00

Photos taken yst. Look at this tiny cake! as we were broke, could only afford to buy this little & cute cake for dad.

hehe. a cake for 1 share only.

A bigger cake for father's day!
Papa was saying that he don't like the mustache..

2007-06-20T05:53:00.000-07:00

who do you think you are?

here creating those necessary troubles.

i hate you. i detest you.

she has never even ask me why.

always mistaking me because of him.

i hate him.

he is a nauisance.

coming into my family and creating necessary conflict.

you are a nobody.

i hate that stare.

i hate your name.

i hate your presence.

keep out from us. please...

2007-06-18T10:23:00.000-07:00

我是不会怎么轻已被打倒的！加油！加油！

thank you my friend...

2007-06-14T07:57:00.000-07:00

days are dragging nearer.
i am getting drain out each day.
it is hard to keep it to myself.
didnt know why, it is affecting so much.
i cant help it.
i am sorry that i behave rudely for the past few weeks.
it is bad, sometimes i can't figure out what is it suppose to be.
i am weird.

2007-06-05T06:05:00.000-07:00

didn't know that this could happen...
it only appears to be fine. but it isn't.
thing have not changed at all.
yet not in it's original form any longer.
it would take umpteen years to heal .
unready and uncertain to set the wings again.

2007-06-04T03:02:00.000-07:00

how i wish that i were a giraffe..
being long and tall.
so that i could have a better view of the world.
so that i wont be ignorance.
so that i could hide my emotions.
so that i wont be seen.

it had been a long weekend...

they make me ponder...

2007-05-28T08:52:00.000-07:00

stuck in this mirror! Get me out ! ahhhh!!

2007-05-24T12:19:00.000-07:00

Seem so close yet so far.

it may be scary & unpredictable.

May appear harmless whereas it may not be.

That isn't the word to be said.

Hoping to have a restart button,

to restore the informations.

Knowing too much isn't good.

thought that you understand but it only seem to be.

2007-05-20T01:12:00.000-07:00

人的美丽，不是从外表所认定的。

虽然你有一张美丽的面孔，

但内心是丑恶的，你并不美丽。

但如果你的面孔不怎么好看，或不讨人喜欢，

但你有一颗纯真的心，你是美丽的。

美丽是从内心发出来的啊！

2007-05-18T08:42:00.001-07:00

Will the flower able survive on rainy days?

2007-05-14T05:23:00.001-07:00

Was paranoid this morning cause of some unimportant and random stuff. Sorry mar la lin, shimin and cher. And also last week. Sorry friends. Thank you mar la lin, weilin, cher, shimin and jj for today. It was the best and memorable day of my life. =) I have great friends !!! Thanks cher, made me completed the 6 rounds! Greatest accomplish! (though i earned 0 point) hehe. Not forgetting our dearest melody! i miss you! go go go friends! Thanks for the h20, fanning and sour plum!

2007-05-14T05:23:00.000-07:00

2007-05-13T05:21:00.000-07:00

The days are drawing near.
The leaves are falling off,
with barely any left.
Every statements & words said have been an illusion.
None of them are true.
Used to be.
Used to it.
Growing more with thorn & THORNS.
Now and then,
then and now,
it has been faded.
Moans and groans,
cries and sorrow.
Let it be.
Rain, rain go away.
Come again another day.

2007-04-27T06:25:00.000-07:00

Yst wedding night was fun! My cousin Amy was geogrous! Let's take a look..

They have known each other for six years, since she was 14years old.

Isn't this sweet?

she is as pretty as a swan ! The loudest the applause, the longer the kiss holds. And it did last for quite long. hehe.

Cross and cheers to them! My oldest cousin and the youngest one./. She has BIG EYES.

At first, there were onli this few people taking photo, then it became so many!

Lastly, my sis and I! More photos will be updated again!

2007-04-24T06:45:00.000-07:00

Gotta be a tough year ! Week four having so many activities! Fight, Fight, Fight through and survive!

x1000 steps has been achieved, aim for 10 steps more .")

Has been looking forward for thursday to arrive! Photos will then be updated soon. hoho!

大家请是目一待吧！哈哈！

School has been fun, thanks girls. I love school! Big hug for everyone (+ mel too! miss u)

2007-04-08T05:38:00.000-07:00

hehe... i am here to change weilin's add.. didn't plan to update much.. don't say i am lazy again! :P has been working all these while.. cause no $$$! school reopening soon. see you guys on monday!

2007-03-24T06:48:00.000-07:00

Wah! 1 week will be over soon yet i have been lazying around at home. So bored! I need cash to go shopping! "Money money.. Mi ni ma ni mo!"

spring is over.

summer has arrived.

i love summer.

battery fully recharged.

no falling leaves, broken sticks laying around.

blasting sun, blue sky over us. greenish trees and beautiful houses,

like an attractive piece of drawing. =)

it is over...

2007-03-22T04:05:00.000-07:00

Confused

Doctor said not to use any product, toner, moisturiser, sunblock! Sunblock! How can?? Isn't UV bad for skin & would cause you to age 100 times faster? My cheek area so dry! Really don't need moisturiser? And not to use make-up remover?? just cleanser and tap water to wash away make-up.. ah? aiyo.. And no mask, no facial. Wah! What i have done to my face in the past is totally a NO NO? Wrong?Why isn't that beautician and dermalogist's view is so different!

Whom should i listen to?? hehe.. but i shall try it for few weeks to see the outcome. Let's wait and see :)

Christine had a funny conversation with her hairstylist today. haha. He told her that his hair is like this (similar as the pic below) cause he has too little hair. HAHA!

2007-03-20T06:46:00.000-07:00

Horrible experience

Gosh. Went to Kose counter just to buy a mask. And ended up being lecture?!

The prompter said that i am lazy, didnt take proper care of my face. And even said, i will get old soon!! ah! was so upset. she told us that need to switch to a new brand. And told us that "still have other problems, just that i didn't say'' .

aiyoyoyo!!!!

2007-03-19T06:20:00.000-07:00

A great discovery

WOW!! Daio is really a great store! everthing selling at $2, from basic necessities to make-ups! And it even sell foods! everything are imported from Japan! Gotta get a new spec tomorrow! No more cat woman in future! :)

Decision has being made. Shall continue ....

2007-03-18T07:15:00.000-07:00

Cabbages

Attachment is over & 1 mth of holiday has just started! What shall i do during this 1mth?

hehe. hmm.. should get everyone out and have a gathering! melody! so long nv seen you, how have you been? marilyn is out at hk nw, hope she is doing fine. Weilin, probably watching tv nw. Cher, with her church friends? Jiejun watching tv too? Shimin pretending to be offline? hehe. Christine and karine watching tv too? hoho.. watching ren ci or ugly betty? aiyo.. let's go sentosa??!! catch a movie? go shopping? or have a big feast together?? this one mth won't get to see you guys much, i will miss you all!

sometimes, i feel rather lost.

Taken With my Fav. graffie =)

So adorable!

She look so cute with the crab spec!

i miss my childhood time...

2007-03-13T08:19:00.001-07:00

same question but my answers are always inconvincing. Full of doubt and uncertainty. till now if you were to ask me that same question, i wouldn't know my answer still. last week, someone asked me a really surprising question. i am doubting if i have partially amenesia..

2007-01-30T05:10:00.000-08:00

tick tock.. tick tock.. grandfather's clock has struck 12 yet she is still at 10 o'clock. racing hard , trying to catch up with it.But no matter how hard she tries, she is still behind time. The AA batteries on her are running out of energy as every seconds pass...

2007-01-24T07:18:00.000-08:00

It's surface means nothing to me....

2007-01-09T05:36:00.000-08:00

On 25th Of dec, she had spent her Christmas Day with her beloved sisters...

On the last day of 2006 the fireworks were great!!

Every moments that they have shared together is even better than the moments before.
As days passed, memories are being created.
With them, she feels bless.
They were angels from heaven,
creating lovely drawings on her diary every secs.
With the beautiful colors on their wings,
dancing round the castle gracefully.
Sprinkling gold dust generously.
A gift from heaven, from the day she was born.
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It is Ambiguous. Being diagnosed with partial amnesia would be helpful.

2006-12-24T07:24:00.001-08:00

Merry christmas!!!!

2006-12-24T07:24:00.000-08:00

Merry christmas!!!!

2006-12-19T07:13:00.000-08:00

To do list during this holiday:

1.Stuff in more clothes in the wardrobe
2. Get a pair of shoes
3.Get a Handbag
4.Get a Blusher
5.Go to the salon
6.Out for a Christmas Party
7.Exercise!
8.More story books
9.Shopping
10. STUDY !!!

who wanna mug with me??! feel free to call me!

Last Sunday at my parent's workplace, a weird incident happened. Everyone was busy tracing for the hiding place of a scheming rat as there was this customer whom wanted a rat to save someone's lives!! It was needed as one of the ingredients of the Chinese herb. My gosh! Who would want to eat a DIRTY rat?!? The aunt whom wanted it actually positioned her whole head under the dirty,dusty shelves with rat's feces all over. Aiyo! But in the end, they couldn't find the rat as it was embedded under one of the shelves. Yucky! Gross! I could even hear the squeaking of the rats nearby. Last week, i was acknowledged by someone! hehe. I was so glad when i heard that. Thank You!

2006-12-03T08:14:00.000-08:00

A spider web

2006-12-02T06:58:00.000-08:00

happy birthday sili!!!

2006-11-28T08:33:00.000-08:00

Picture speaks a thousand words

2006-11-27T07:21:00.000-08:00

caught in the heavy rain in an exotic jungle. it was misty and hazy. inhaling the smelled fishy air. grasping for air as she darted through the thorny bushes, pricking brutally onto her skin.

Like a primitive creature searching for her way out. ominous vultures sweeping in the air waiting for the death of her. the beam of light seems so near yet so far, untangible...

2006-11-26T07:46:00.000-08:00

two weeks have passed and she isn't back yet...

2006-11-25T21:12:00.000-08:00

The hillsong concert was really great. the concert started at seven but we went there at 3.30. haha. cause melody wanted us to get a better seat. so kiasu of us, typical singaporean?haha.Nevertheless, we ended up seated at the third row!!! i could see the performers clearly and they could see me too! yst was the first time i saw myself in the big screen. seemed like a ghostly figure stoning,trying hard to get words coming out from her mouth. melody didnt get to sit with us as she was serving. And she suits red perfectly! With her red hairband and red top, she looked like a snow white! keyboard player seemed to be lost and shy. haha. yst, i realised that marilyn is really demure. the way she hit and drum and how she had jumped. haha. so cute! thanks marilyn for sharing so much with me. :) tell me more next time!

how would things be on monday?

2006-11-24T07:07:00.000-08:00

really had enjoyed myself on thursday at east coast. thought we only cycled for an hour, having them beside me was great. wednesday was great too but unexpected news was brought to us. i will miss her so much. thanks for filling my life with all those happy memories. i will bring them with me. melody's house was nicely decorated. i shall visit her house more often with the rest. an ideal place to sleep over, for ICA, games, party to be held. took lots and lots of pictures today, using christine,marilyn,weilin,nana's camera. looking forward to all those pictures to be washed out! i shall buy the precious moment's photo album to put all those photos. went for dinner with marilyn, cher and jiejun at crystal jade. and realised that my shooting skill is really bad. sorry girls! those girls were really cute and funny. thanks to weilin for today :)

2006-11-17T02:58:00.000-08:00

a coconut without it's shell.

swimming in the huge sea with its husk.

fighting on,

carrying a heavy duty of dispersing it's seeds,

despite those heavy storms.

weeks and weeks, months and months passed.

with no idea when it will reach it's destination.

with no help, floating all alone on the huge yet empty sea.

yearning for a log to rest on.

the seagulls are it's encouragement,

keeping it's high spirit and contiune to swim.

2006-11-16T06:26:00.000-08:00

she feels lonely and frighten without them.

althought it was just for one day.

she has never even realised the importance of their presence.

every single day, looking forward for them.

enjoying their laughters and quarrels.

a call will do.

just one call will do.....

2006-11-14T05:47:00.000-08:00

Mountain

Huge and tall

standing alone.

changes as the seasons grow.

autumn.

spring.

winter.

summer.

each representing an emotion.

she feels lost somtimes. =/

2006-11-13T07:16:00.000-08:00

get out of hands.

set things on fire.

being astonished.

surprises on and off.

full of imaginations.

bewildered.

beyond me.

2006-11-06T06:17:00.000-08:00

was supposed to meet cher,marilyn for breakfast but was late as i was stunned when i saw my delicate eye area using my sis's magic mirror! i need to see a dermatology this wk! sitting on the sofa, looking at myself for hour an half, trying hard to cover up the ugly skin. gosh. took a photo with my blur queen today. hehe. so glad that those thoughts had been erased :) really enjoyed being with them. occupied with laughter and jokes. saw them yst with my sis, as usual, i tried hard to get away from their stare. the sight of them really make me frighten, full of guilt in me. if there is a time machine.... if i didn't... it was too late.

2006-11-02T07:12:00.000-08:00

cant remember when did it started,

those words doesn't match .

they were unintentional yet hurting .

with no sense of self-control, it might go hay-wire one day.

with her existence, those words doesn't seem to belong to me.

they cant be held back any longer.

it shouldn't be like this.

2006-10-31T05:55:00.000-08:00

she believes,

that everyone has a reason to live on.

Regardless of the tons and tons of obstacles ahead,

continue to move on and search for it!

if not, won't it be meaningless ?

live your life to the fullest!

keep smiling to everyone besides you.

Show that you care for them, indirectly ,directly,verbally etc... it doesn't matter. :)

Dig out more of their positive sides than the negative ones.

Make more Compliments than complains.

Learn to forgive and forget.

Have a thought for others.

I didnt realise that she wears a warm smile, till that night.

Aishiteru ze mummy =)

2006-10-28T09:24:00.000-07:00

things are going smoothly,

as you believe that everything has a reason behind it.

thus, she is getting a hundred steps closer =)

continue with this spirit

And everything will be fine!

she has found her source of strength..

which is... from..

everyone!!!

thanks my friends !!!! love you guys!! hohohoho!

And of course my family too!!

2006-07-26T07:53:00.000-07:00

she needs a mirror and fire extinguisher.

give her a hammer to break the walls.

she wants a net to get rid of those butterflies.

she needs a lawn mower for the grasses under her foot.

2006-07-06T06:39:00.000-07:00

what would the cute little ones turn out to be?

be like what our lecturer said?

they are all so precious and innocent.

they are a gift to everyone of us.

how could anyone bear to hurt them?

she isn't sensitive about her feelings.

assuming that she already has one.

but has none.

always has a limit between them,

unlike the others.

why is that so?

she doesn't know.

it has been 5 years since they met.

but still, things aren't what she wants to be like.

2006-06-25T09:40:00.000-07:00

maybe,

they shouldn't be so close in the first place.

nobody cares,

everyone might see her as a demon,

a pretender,

whatever that they thought of.

similar as the sour heads,

you won't know that it is sour only if you have tasted the sweetness first.

the guilts in her are building on.

every sec, every min,

whenever she does it.

And, she has no idea.

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on the 25th of june

everything has changed.

It was a lousy and ridiculous conclusion.

she shouldn't have,

shouldn't have,

................

what's going on ?

she needs someone whom can

.........

ahhhhhh!

help !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-06-22T21:13:00.000-07:00

*****
is an difficult task to be fullfilled?
has no meaning?
has turned into a threatening say to her?
holds control of her?

she shall stop enying others. do it. show care for them. go ahead and be brave!

2006-06-13T08:18:00.000-07:00

she was chanting these this morning...
appearance + inner side = ??

a.beautiful + evil= ugly
b.ugly + kind = beautiful
c.beautiful + kind = alluring
d.ugly + evil = maleficent

which kind do you want to be?

funny comic strips

2006-06-04T06:59:00.000-07:00

when a woman loves a man, the sweetest thing in the world is to hear him admit that he treasures her. agree? she read it from a note. yesterday, she went shopping by herself again. :) brought a new top and bottom! gotta wear it to school tml. great singapore sale is finally here! can't wait to buy all the things from the shelves.

they are drawing nearer once again. looking and hoping for one every sec. still, she behaves as usual like a caterpillar. muching on the leaves every now and then. gosh. she is really bored. blog again next week .

2006-05-18T09:28:00.000-07:00

it is 12.29 and she is currently busy with her ica. her eyelids are shutting soon. her pant is on fire. don't speak to her then! being so insincere. busy. away. busy. away. how many times have you been decieving her? billions. what do you want? made up your mind. speak up. she is freaking out. go away if you want to. she won't stop you from leaving.

2006-05-18T07:22:00.000-07:00

she was stunned. by what was said. wondering how would others have thought or reacted. it had seemed to her that the surface WAS flawless . but now, she has started to see scratches and marks on it. once again, she was wrong. her judgemental's skill is far way off. things just don't turn out to be the way that she had expected.never judge a book by it's cover. dump everything into a biodegradable bag and bury them. let them decompose, and all will be gone forever. she must not be in this shape. she needs to be told. but no one dare to. she wants that flawless surface again.

2006-05-16T07:14:00.000-07:00

*what is happening between them? please please please, someone stop the cold war. forbid misunderstandings from happening between them. like things turn out well tomorrow. she hates to see them behaving like that. she wants to see them wearing that beautiful smile on their faces again.

*seen it again. pretending not to again. what's wrong with them? behaving like this? avoidance? ignorance? busy? away? haa.. escapist? what's wrong with things lately!!!!

2006-05-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

Happy Birthday queen!

Presenting to you photos that were taken by miss NEO...

2006-05-15T08:15:00.000-07:00

she has been a dummy for years. they have been keeping everythings to themselves. they didn't speak a word, keeping slience as usual. the woman resembles the slient killer that she had seen in the movie. she wears a mask everyday. stop hidding behind that mask of yours. sprouting nonsenses is a bad thing. be rationale before you speak.

2006-05-14T08:53:00.000-07:00

have you been telling lies?

stays the same still?

treating her as one?

has she been a nuisance?

thought of getting it again?

insomnia every nights?

day-dreaming every seconds?

sprouting non-sensible stuffs?

a lose screw in her brain?

are you nut?

behaves like an imbecile?

nobody's ?

2006-05-13T08:04:00.000-07:00

A pervert

gosh. she met a pervert today. becareful if u saw this man with a black top and a sliver chain. he is a chinese. he is a complete pervert!!!!!

yesterday's night was peaceful after complaining so much. thanks for hearing her! :) you know who you are. she shall share the fries with you on monday.

2006-05-11T08:32:00.000-07:00

she has been stuffing herself with foods uncontrollably. putting on weight for every seconds.

-the end-

2006-05-10T07:41:00.000-07:00

The wicked witch

she really hates that woman. she behaves like the snow white in their presence. but she becomes an ugly witch in their absence. she critiques on everyone except for herself. why does she has to behave in such a way? isn't she nice and sweet in the past? somebody has to stop her INSTANTLY as she is inflicting more injuries on them every seconds. she loves the way she was in the past. innocent, bubbly, caring, plus plus plus. gosh! stop sprouting nonsenses ! she hates it. tell her straight onto her face. don't try to play tricks with her. she is bias. she is revengful. she does not treat them as a being. she treats them as her dog. They have to obey her, worship her. If not, they will end up in a bad state. she hates the suitation to be like this. And again, she is complaining now. she is a monster. there isn't such a word called "understanding" in her dictionary. she had dumped it into the bin long ago. all she does now is gossiping and backstabbing. Every actions that she takes , every single words that she says are ruthless and incredible. she resembles the scavenger whom feeds on decayed matters. Stop being so pretendious. she dislikes it. stop controlling them! yes yes! everythings that YOU have said are right! YOU ARE THE CLEVEST AH? my gosh. she doesn't want to hear anything from YOU anymore.

2006-05-08T08:31:00.000-07:00

she has been drowned with thoughts every nights.

she is getting fatter every seconds.

she needs cash for investment.

she needs an eye treatment badly.

she wants...

a new hair-do.

clothes.

hair accessories.

a watch.

KEDS's pump/sneaker.

jeans.

necklaces.

earrings.

facial products.

she wants everythings.

she is GREEDY.

2006-05-06T09:51:00.000-07:00

she almost fainted due to low o2 level and you were the culprit.

2006-05-04T06:40:00.000-07:00

she really can't understand that woman. why cant she just take it or leave it? does she has to critique so much? she is nasty, she is manipulative. always thinking that what she does are always right, and what people do are always wrong. stop being so self-centered. if she has the authority, she would have told her off, shut her up, forbid her from interfering into their life.

what's wrong lately? you can't judge a book by it's cover. everythings seem to be opposing her, everyone seems to be suprising her.

people, don't ever despise her. she isn't what you think or see. she hates it when you put her low unevidencely. don't treat her like a clown, don't manipulate her around. don't think that she is silly. as she is not.

2006-05-03T06:41:00.000-07:00

the weather was freaking cold and dark, she didn't get to see the rainbow. as if she is watching the 50's movie which is in black and white only. maybe, it's time to let go of the kite. letting it fly up high into the sky but wishing that it will land beside her again. hoping that the weather will turn out fine tomorrow, for her to free the kite.

2006-05-02T08:27:00.000-07:00

they have promised to be like this forever. but what if she.. she said it was a simple task for her. but what if.. she is behaving like a complete idiot and she is aging. Her limbs and organs aren't functioning well. have been day-dreaming all these while. it was her whom initiated. it was her whom said so. and now, it is her whom isn't sure about it. what's wrong with her lately? everything seems to be not right. she did see and heard it on that day. but she pretended that she didnt. she doesn't know why. she was having cold sweat and was suffocated. is that so? is that why? but she is still having a few episodes recently, not only on that certain day. Please stop raining, she hopes to see the rainbow tomorrow.

2006-04-29T09:04:00.000-07:00

every parts of her organs are aching. everything isn't right for today. she feels like hibernating again.

2006-04-27T06:04:00.000-07:00

she seems to be alright but she is not. she really hope that she could help. but dare not ask why. whatever it is, she will always be there for you. don't be afraid to seek for help, your friends are all out there to lend you a helping hand. she will recover. AND SHE WILL. =)

she didn't know that in just a few hours, she could get to know them better =) she hopes that this will carry on. as they are what she calls friends.with the accompany of them plus her fries with tomato sauce ! haha. what else could be better than this. oh no, miss tallest is sick.do rest well at home and hope that you will recuperate soon! everyone have been missing you.
she is getting fatter, is that why there are 2 tiny holes on her blouse? oh no. it seemed to be so tight when she seat down. before she brought it, she had tried and the size was just right for her. and now, she felt suffocated wearing that blouse. she has to be on diet! miss blur, miss tallest, miss funniest 1 and miss sweetest. don't think too much =) it will make things worst. remember what our lecturer had said? stresses are due to your own thoughts. be more optimistic! all your friends around you will be upset seeing you in this state. share it with them, don't keep everything to youself. she hopes that you girls will be fine soon. after she gets her pay, she promises to get a small gift for everyone k? hehe. she will bring more choz next week ! cheer up!

2006-04-26T05:08:00.000-07:00

thanks to your childhood incidents which had made her felt better. =) and you! don't keep everything to yourself. feel free to give her a call when you need someone. dump everything to her and she will eat them all up for you.

present to you...

ta da!! here is she. that cherries pump that she had mentioned previously. isn't she cute?

2006-04-25T08:44:00.000-07:00

An Ugly Monster

she was watching her tiny, bony hand being beaten by an ugly monster for a million times helplessly. wanted to kick the ugly monster out of the house for that instance but she dare not. the ugly monster had been scolding her since she stepped into their house. every single words that she had said were nasty and unpresentable. her actions, her expressions were rude and offensive. she had been swallowing her anger for one and a half hour and finally, she could bear it no longer. she broke down and went to the toilet. gravity was pulling her tears down from her tear duct. she wanted to speak but she couldn't. that ugly monster slapped her with a wooden ruler, but she denied. she had been defensive and rude. she hates her! she smells like a rotten fish!

2006-04-22T09:03:00.000-07:00

totally insane

she had been stoning for 8 hours today! that was totally insane! bored! oh gosh. breadtalk had been busy all the while!

hoping that anyone could have chat with her. her tummy was growling for food! she didn't had breakfast in the morning! singaporeans are really RUDE. can't u just say welcome after a thank you from someone? or just simply smile instead of walking off like this!?

AND! Kids are really cute! she saw a 5-6 years old boy sitting on his dad's shoulder. wow! and it was really high. what if your husband did that to your child and he fall? and is dead ? gosh! please! that's cocoa trees! not an information counter. ppl have been asking her where is this and where is that! and some even came with a MAP ! she isn't familar with paragon! all she knows are shops at B1. haa! can't wait for may to arrive! her pay day! anyone wanna go shopping with her? she needs more tops, a pair of shoe, 2 denium skirt, earrings!

she had been followed yesterday. and it was scary. she was sweating profusely at that instead. there were someone behind her but she didn't know the sex. then, she heard the tapping of the shoe getting clearer and that person was speeding up. Fretfully, she turned behind and saw a middle-aged man, 3cm away , looking down on her. Immediately, she took out her phone but didn't dare to call for help. she started to speed up! hoping that someone could have save her! still, she called for him but he didnt pick up. then she called for her. when she turned back again, that man was staring at her too. but he had walked towards another direction. it was so close! what's wrong with that man?!?

2006-04-21T08:08:00.000-07:00

her heart is crying for help. couldn't bear to inflict more injuries. wild thoughts have been on her mind. hoping that there are true. when can she find the answer?? she isn't sure herself. having him around makes her feels secure. having him around makes her feels protected. having him around makes her feels safe. having him around makes her feels blessed. why is it so? she has been telling it to everyone but there are still queries to that answer. what's wrong with her? gosh!

2006-04-18T07:21:00.000-07:00

getting stuck. hit by the questions. she isn't convinced by the answer she has. she shouldn't dwell with it anymore.

2006-04-13T08:15:00.000-07:00

haven been updating my blog for so long. i have been fed with chocz for the 3 weeks holidays! my little tummy is getting rounder! oh no! i can't survive without chocz for a day. haha. thanks to samatha whom has been giving me samples to try. went out today with sis to get myself a new bag. but i can't find any that i want! wanna go Missy B to look at their bags. who want to join me?! haha. i can't find the cherries pump that i want to! look!!~ here is she!! if u saw her, please inform me! she stays at world of sports. wanna buy new things for school! a bag, pump, jeans, tops and accessories! $$$$$ where r u? aiyo.. can't upload the pic.. maybe next time :)

2006-03-26T08:19:00.000-08:00

hardly look into her eyes,

not even once.

wanted to express herself,

but she can't.

the two letters really sounds unsincere.

knowing that she shouldn't dwell into it anymore,

but she just couldn't help it.

just one last time,

please forgive her for being emotional.

2006-03-22T22:52:00.000-08:00

oh my gosh! these clutches and boxes are exquisite isn't it!?! the prices are from a hundred bucks onwards.. should i get one? hehe.. simply loves vintage so much! oh! how i wish i am from the 60s or 70s. *grin

Shoes below!!

the heels are so high!! drools...

www.dustbunnyvintage.com

www.bohemianbutterfly.com.sg

www.purpleanemone.com

www.junkie3.com

these 4 are great website for online shopping! browse it!

2006-03-14T04:01:00.000-08:00

attachment will be over soon. she can't wait for friday to arrive. attachments are tiring but meaningful. seeing the patients recovering to their optimum's health makes her feel a sense of satisfaction. she feels useless and redundant sometimes, in the way of the staff nurses. she wish that she could help more. daddy had bought her a new phone and she simply LOVE it :)
LOVE YOU DADDY! didn't know that her dad is willing to sponsor her so much on the phone. she had a choice btw two phones, motorala v7 which cost 238 and k750i which cost 368. of course. the more expensive one is better. but, she likes the slimer one which is v7. mummy was like, choose k750i la, anyway daddy is paying for that. haha. she told cher. cher said, if your mummy is paying i think she would have buy a 0 dollar phone with plan for you. haha! they totally agreed! nah. she is not speaking ill of her mum here. it is the truth! haha. anyway, she signed up for a student plan but her mum is using it. In total, her parents will be paying for 7 plans till june! oh dear!

2006-02-25T02:07:00.000-08:00

Chapter two
In the movie threater

"WE ARE LATE FOR THE MOVIE!" proclaimed Mrs porcuppine.
Twenty minutes later, they had reached the threater but there were only two seats left. Still, Mr porcuppine insisted on watching the movie.

"Hey ppine, are you thirsty?" rustled Mrs porcuppine.
"shhhhh!" hissed Mr porcuppine rudely.
Mrs porcuppine rolled back to her seat skully. They were sitting at two different ends which was 30cm apart as it was the only seats left.

"Miss sexy porcuppine, i am thirsty. Can I have the drink instead?" flirted Mr cocodile in his tuxedo.
"Oh yes, you may have it" replied Mrs porcuppine in embarassment as she was bewitched by him.
"May i know your name ?" asked Mr cocodile with his gloved flap around her shoulder.
"Tan ah siao, call me ah siao in short" answered Mrs porcuppine as she bring herself closer to him.
"Oh! Such a beautful name you have and it suits you perfectly!" yelled Mr crocodile in delight.

Halfway through the movie, everyone felt so warm that they had started to perspire.
"FIRE! FIRE!" exclamied Mr cocodile in horror.
And everyone were charging out of the threater except for Mrs pocuppine who was busy extinguishing the fire on Mr porcuppine's spikes.

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Never again they would speak,

As she has been escaping.

Falling part is unpredictable.

Nervertheless,

she never knew it would happen so soon.

Forgive her for being insensitive,

Forgive her for being inconsiderate.

Knowing that those are false,

she has never utter a single word.

Keeping everything to yourself,

would be the best answer.

2006-02-23T07:17:00.000-08:00

history has repeated itself

but the roles have changed

seeing herself in that,

she finally understands.

the fear that she had.

2006-02-17T20:48:00.000-08:00

assumptions are always untrue

disgust describes them best.

don't assume,

don't predict,

as everythings are redundant.

And she hated it.

making it simple

wont be better.

And therefore, you would know who is she.

don't come near me,

don't touch me,

as i would remain stagnant or retreat.

To protect myself from any harm.

call me selfish if you want,

and i won't give a damn to it.

2006-02-17T04:10:00.000-08:00

Chapter one

A day out to Orchard

Mr.porcuppine= Mrs Porcuppine imaginary husband
Miss Tortoise = Bus driver

"HEY ppine ppine! Are you done?! I am late for work!" yelled Mr porcuppine in his eight octave high voice.

"Coming, coming... I.... am shavvvving my leg's hairs" Mrs porcuppine replied as her adam's apple was vibrating.

In the meanwhile, Mr porcuppine was trying to gel his spikes back onto his head, leaving 2 strands standing.

"ppine! Come and see my spikes! Don't gel or gel nice ah?"

"GEL LA! GEL LA. FASTER LA! TODAY CAR SPOLIT! HAVE TO TAKE BUS INSTEAD!"

Mr and Mrs porcuppine rolled down to the bus-stop continuously.

10 minutes had past...

20 minutes had past...

The bus had finally arrived 30 minutes after and the two porcuppines had dosed off.

"B........E.......E......P........B.......E.......E......P....." Miss tortise honked unhurriedly.

zzzzZZZZZZZzzzzz .... zzzzZZzzzzzzzzZZZZZZZzzzzzz....
The two porcuppines were snoring away while miss tortise was marching out of her bus to wake them up.

To protect herself from any injuries, she used her tortoise's shell and knocked them up. To her horror, she knocked too hard and the two porcuppines went rolling down the slope, past the shophouses and landed along the roadside which was at Orchard.

Finally, they had reached their destination.

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Mrs. Porcuppine

Spikes on her back,
To protect herself from enemies
The day has comes,
And an attack from an enemy
Trust cause harm
And barrier has been made

Always hibernating,
and wish it would be forever
Being punished,
as she was wrong
Increasing them would prevent it.
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Again and again.
It has occured,
reflection would be it.
Be alone would be better.
Punishment would be made
If she did it again.
Gaining it back would be hard.
Bear this in mind,
she is not what as seen.
Apologising for disbehaving.
Blame all on her,
as she know why.
Just ONE more step,
she would vanish
No injuries, No sadness
inflicted on others.

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2006-02-09T08:25:00.000-08:00

*warning*

entering the inner side of her

she feels...

1. Inf_ r _ _ o _

2. M_ _e_ _bl_

3. U_e_e_ _

4. D_n_e_r

5. s_ _ k

6.Un_ _ _ _

7._m_ _y

they are unspeakable...

they are negative...

they are unfriendly...

Trying to figure out those words ? Better don't...

2006-01-22T06:54:00.000-08:00

Thanks to all her family and friends who has been with her throughout the year...

Firstly, to mummy...
mummy! Thanks for guiding her throughout her life. You have been compromising her all along though she have been petty and unconsiderate. She felt really sorry that she has been rude to you.

to daddy...
she is sorry that she has been petty. She has promised that she would be more considerate about your feelings.

to siqi...
muacks! thanks for being there whenever she needs a listening ear! thanks for being her fashion consultant for the past few days and your amazing pimple gel! Her pimples have reduced in size and some have even disappeared! She is really sorry that she has been using your foundation :P.
But! you have been wearing her shoes too ah!

to sini...
thanks for being her maid sometimes! without you, she would not be able to have a taste of those delicious meals!

to sili...
your silliness have brought laughters and joy to her! though she has never tell you before but she loves you a lot!

to her maid...
Sorry that i have been rude sometimes. Without you, i would be late for school everyday and would starve to death!

To all her friends,

christine, cher,melody, karine, shimin, weilin, marilyn, jiejun, elena, peiyi etc etc..

Sorry as she has not been able to control her emotions. sorry as she has been rude. Sorry as she has been unconsiderate. Sorry as she has been petty. Sorry as she has been helpless. Sorry as she has been undecisive. Sorry for everything that she has done which has upset you.

Thanks so much for being there for her!!

2005-12-24T09:15:00.000-08:00

she had enjoyed the 'magic of love' at expo today! It was great! The mtv had touched my heart. Seeing their relationship improving tremendously, she had really felt happy for them. thanks to her dear friend, cher! Long time ago, she had promised to exchange christmas presents with her two dearest buddies but it ended up none. This year, she finally did it!

Though her present was not any expensive ones, she hope that her friends would enjoy tasting them :)

After the magic show, she went shopping with her 'rebellious' sister. she saw a really nice skirt at a fantastic shop and wish that santa claus would deliver it to her house!

Santa, if you are reading this, please note for a vintage knee-length skirt with flora printings.It is at $58 per piece (bring extra money in case if there is GST charge) M size is the only piece left and she wouldn't mind if it is too big. She wouldn't mind if it is a belated christmas gift too :) Send it to my block as I would deliver it to her for you.

Someone called her today and said something that you couldn't even believe it. It was so nice of her to said all those words. Don't think that anyone out there would have said all those meaningful words to her. Not even a single friend of her. It was really words from the bottom of her heart.

Because of that particular phonecall, it made her realised that to some of them, it really need a lot of pride to apologise to someone.

She had appreciated that.

2005-12-19T07:46:00.000-08:00

flashed back again

memories flashed back in her mind again. if there is another chance, she won't not want it back. it does not belong to her anymore. somebody else should have it.

a bubbly girl went to a private hospital with the accompany of her two friends. she found a 0.6cm long lymph node inside her left cheek after the x-ray was done. she would have to for for an operation if it grows till 1cm long! disappear lymph node... disappear! if she is a MAGICIAN, she would be able make it disappear. they had drunk many cups of FREE chocolate and ice-water today and were feeling bloated!

the private hospital would be a nice place to work in! air-conditioned, with a big living room, nurses are friendly and doctors too! and has no medication smell! wow! everyone there are so friendly and warm! makes her feel like a part of them too :)

oh! she will be going for shopping tomorrow! envy ? :P

2005-12-16T08:57:00.000-08:00

she laughed at me. laughed at me. seek advice from me and laughed at me for all the stupid advices i have gave. why am i so lousy?

2005-12-16T08:18:00.000-08:00

cool down, cool down. focus! what is on your mind? can you tell me? shhhh! you red devil stop disrupting her thoughts! let her cool down and think. oh.. is she hinting something? what?
oh no. i can't figure that out.

i am so cold to her. should i listen ? oh gosh. i don't know. i don't get it. what's on her mind? she dump me when she don't need me. she finds me when she need me. what am i to her? a trash? a ball? a sweet wrapper? a dish? i really don't know.

2005-12-15T08:18:00.000-08:00

hypersensitive

she don't know why, just can't control that sensitivity in her.

felt as if she is making troubles for herself. such a troublemaker.

she is more fortunate than so many people out there. why can't she appreciate that?

such an idot.

ok, please stop all the nonsense now dummy. stop making a fool of yourself. it is not the end of the world.

focus your attention on other stuffs. stop being so self-centered.

2005-12-14T07:28:00.000-08:00

[she] thought that [her] feelings have settled down

at 11.20 : [she] would throw all [her] frustrations away and start a brand new day from tomorrow onwards! thanks to you doodiedolka-net, for lending [her]your pair of ear.

holiday coming soon! can't wait to spend all [her] savings on clothes. gotta make-over for

[her] wardrobe,

[her] room,[ her] shoe cabinet and [HERSELF]! oh gosh.[ her] sisters were scolding [her] about [her] poor sense of fashion.

at 11.45: 'she' lied . 'she' Lied. 'she' LIED. on the day when [she] was about to bury all [her] troubles. at 11.45 on the 14 of dec. when [she] was halfway through chatting with 'her' in msn. 'she' LIED. a horrible LIED. a stupid LIED. why did 'she' did that? WHY?!?

why can't 'she' tell [her] that 'she' actually knew it. and 'she' actually KNEW it. why did 'she' act as if she know nuts about it? [she] hated it.

those things are driving [her] crazy. please, anyone stop all those craps from continuing. the sack on [her] back are getting heavier and heavier. somebody, please take it away from [her]. dump it into the sea or somewhere. just don't let [her] have it again. [she] don't ever want to have an overloaded sack anymore.

describe [her] with any verbs/vocabs that you want. immature, stupid, introvert, unreasonable, undecisive,crazy etc etc...[she] would not be angry. anything you like. but just don't lie to [her] again.

[she] might not be able to start a brand new day then.

"sorry, my friend" [she] cried, apologized wholeheartally for the troubles that [she] has created.